So today I came into the Burn to spend 3 hours. I had a lot of stuff to do at home and work this week has been quite crazy, so part of me really wanted to just spend the evening in. But… I opted to be with God instead. When I first got here my car decided to get stuck so that was my first half hour gone. Then I got in and got somewhat calmed down from the frustration my car inflicts as it desires, so I sat down to play the keyboard and worship. Then the renters upstairs decided to make themselves known to me by stomping repeatedly!!! (CAN A GIRL GET A BREAK!!!)
The thing I want to focus on from tonight though is when the person prayed me into the room when he was done, he gave me a word. He told me,”God is jealous for your time!” He went on to express other aspects of the word that really spoke volumes to me. In fact, I was praying about some of these things when I was in the shower after work. Asking God about my other interests and how I really don’t want any of them, just Him. But it is a struggle. It is very difficult for me to let go of some of the things I have held on to for so long. Things that I have looked at for so long as being so harmless and innocent. Yet now I see them as tiny little drops of poison.
So when I sat down at the keyboard, this is the song that started to pour out of my mouth:
If You really love me like You say You do, come and show me.
If You really want me like You say You do, come and meet with me
If You really love me like You say You do, come and show me
If You really want me like You say You do, come and meet with me
Come and calm the questions in my mind
Come bring peace into my life
Come give me understanding
Come reveal Your mystery
Because I really need You
Maybe someday someone else will hear it. Or maybe it will be my cry. Who know…
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